Late on Sleep

So...I'm late on sleep.  I think it started about four years back when I stayed up to late and got up to early.  Ever since then I just can't seem to catch up.

Every night I go to bed telling myself I should have closed my eyes sooner and every morning I wake up denying the sunrise.  Well that might be a slight exaggeration, but it's pretty close.  Every time I get closer to catching up on sleep, something happens to put me back again.  I guess I'll just have to face it: I'm not going to catch up till I'm old and grey.  And maybe not even then.

Seems like I'm trying to catch up to a lot of things lately.  Time's running ahead of me and it won't stop and let me take a breath.

I lost my job when I graduated, because it was connected to the school, and I had planned on getting a new one this summer.  Well the summer is quickly passing by and so far...nothing.  Uhh, the frustration!

There are so many things I'd love to do in life, but I never feel like I have enough money, time, or energy.

I just need to realize that I will never have enough...not even when I'm old and gray.

The only way I can accomplish anything is with God's help.  I guess that makes me pretty helpless, huh?

But I think I'd rather have it that way.  Imagine if we all had the capability to do whatever we wanted on our own.  This world could get messed up pretty quickly.

Thankfully, God is the great Orchestrator over all time and happenings.  He plans everything and even better, He knows what He's doing.

I wonder what He had planned next for me?

High thoughts.